Before I go into my story, I want to give thanks and recognition to my loving husband of thirty-two years. Buddy is my collaborating editor, and because of his ideas, he has improved so many of my posts.
It was just three years before I met Buddy that something happened to me that instantly changed my life forever.
Prior to that day, I was doing all I knew to do to as a dedicated Christian and doing what I thought would please God. I was attending church three times a week, I tithed on the gross, not on the net. I didn’t cuss, I didn’t have any vices, and I only listened to Christian music.
However, the pressures of life were literally crushing me. I was exhausted from working two jobs, while my stay-at-home X-husband, James, watched over our three children and refused to do housework.
That particular day I hit the breaking point when three insufficient fund notices arrived in the mail. We were sinking financially and I felt like I was drowning. There were no cell phones or online banking, so I had no way of instantly verifying as to what was going on.
Little did I know that James was stealing money from our account to buy drugs and was messing around in bars, while I was working the night shift.
That day as I wept violently, I screamed out to God, with everything in my being and said, “just talk to me and tell me what to do. I will do anything, anything!”
Almost instantly and to my surprise, a sense of peace descended on me that I had never experienced. A presence filled the room that radiated the most amazing feeling of love.
I felt as if a warm blanket were being wrapped around me, and inside my heart there was a knowing that this presence was speaking to me and saying, “I’m here and I will show you what to do.”
Over the next six months, I can’t even begin to list the multitude of miracles that occurred as I was led by God out of a toxic and rapidly becoming dangerous relationship.
During the time that God was leading me to freedom, He showed me so many things in the Bible, in the gospels, and in the prophets.
Although I had been a Christian all my life, I was truly meeting Christ for the very first time. I was understanding his teachings, because I was experiencing them. I understood what it meant to be spiritually born again. I understood the parable of the valuable treasure chest in the field that when you find it, you are willing to sell everything and purchase the field to possess it forever.
That next six months was a very tough, but an amazingly beautiful time in my life.
During that time, I was learning to hear the voice of God and He let me know what my purpose in this life is.
God eventually led me out of the Church as he revealed how corrupt the current entity known as the body of Christ is.
My writings are words that God has given me, words of reproof for the Christian Church. Remember, judgement starts first in the house of God, and whom the Lord loves he reproves.
Through these blog posts, I want to share what God has shown me, so that I may help to open eyes that have been blinded by religion. I hope to show the stark difference between the religion that we have been taught, and the kingdom of God of which Christ taught.
So, please know that the spirit driving these words is derived from love.